Au revoir
Whenever I say goodbye I always seem to see them again
Its when I don't that they go forever
Bean in that meat grinder
I say never again
Never,Never
Now i've seen
but its getting fainter
fainter
I hope im still here to see it
So many things I could put here
but this is the thousanth time
and
they telling me it doesnt matter
just to throw it out there
because the timing is right
on time
I've lost hope
until my eggs drop
Then im drowning in it
my fingertips right on it
even though its not there
Now. We all have our limits
and that is scary,
I never took the bait
found out i was just like him
so he left me
i only hound
until you sho
Angels
With demon souls
Look look look
they say bleed
because I wont ever let you in
Thankyou
for making me hate you
its nice to feel numb
fires that you started
have burnt everything inside right out
cleansed me into nothing
All angels look the same
dark dark hair
hurting souls
See, I can feel your red liquid, boiling
everyone else just sees
your earthy rock
You, made me, turn me into the devil
'Who was I good for'
I still think I am justified
But they scream that Im a truely awful being
I miss ignorance
Summers days of serenity
Dreaming of how neat and tidy the future would be
When I became fully grown
Eighteen, twenty one, twenty three?
I see where this is heading
Life has always just begun and is always beginning
Until it's ending
Oh Fool, what are you running to
Nothing will hold you
Like your being held now
You'll beg
Just five minutes longer
But shes already gone
Ran down that dirt track
Screaming silently IM MORE THAN THIS
They heard you
So signed you up for this
dark
Dark
Fantasy
Now that your out in the cold
You thought you had no armor
Until they took your gold
illusions built on illusions built on illusions
I'm in love with my killer by hastsmak, literature
Literature
I'm in love with my killer
I'm going,
I said ' Get me there'
They said ' We thought you'd never ask'
They tortured me out of love
I slept with death
I learned that fear only wants to be loved
I'm in love with my killer
I never fell for his innocence in the summer
Just his brotherly charm,
& the gold in his soul behind those eyes.
He cuts me up, without touch or words;
Am I afraid? I no longer want to hurt,
I swam, I ran, but it wont work when he loves me in my dreams,
I'm not strong enough to fight the dream.
He says he doesn't remember me but I've got a portal into his subtlety,
Your coughing blood just like me, put my mouth on your mouth and we'll drink eternally
She wore black and danced in every desert dream
Colours pored from her arms as they became rainbow cobras
She changed to Gold and danced in every desert dream
Keep calling
Bring them back
Light the fire
Loamy faces
Toss the head
Our canoe
A private dance for the river and for you
Its overly blurry, my amnesia
This fever,
is fading?
Am I still dreaming?
Remember, when our eyes would change
When the world died overnight
We ran riot through the castles
They hunted us
And we laughed at rabid rabbits hunting the lions
His pale pale body
Changing from bronze to white
I had to carry you
Onto the table
A bloody river
A bloo
Au revoir
Whenever I say goodbye I always seem to see them again
Its when I don't that they go forever
Bean in that meat grinder
I say never again
Never,Never
Now i've seen
but its getting fainter
fainter
I hope im still here to see it
So many things I could put here
but this is the thousanth time
and
they telling me it doesnt matter
just to throw it out there
because the timing is right
on time
I've lost hope
until my eggs drop
Then im drowning in it
my fingertips right on it
even though its not there
Now. We all have our limits
and that is scary,
I never took the bait
found out i was just like him
so he left me
i only hound
until you sho
Angels
With demon souls
Look look look
they say bleed
because I wont ever let you in
Thankyou
for making me hate you
its nice to feel numb
fires that you started
have burnt everything inside right out
cleansed me into nothing
All angels look the same
dark dark hair
hurting souls
See, I can feel your red liquid, boiling
everyone else just sees
your earthy rock
You, made me, turn me into the devil
'Who was I good for'
I still think I am justified
But they scream that Im a truely awful being
I miss ignorance
Summers days of serenity
Dreaming of how neat and tidy the future would be
When I became fully grown
Eighteen, twenty one, twenty three?
I see where this is heading
Life has always just begun and is always beginning
Until it's ending
Oh Fool, what are you running to
Nothing will hold you
Like your being held now
You'll beg
Just five minutes longer
But shes already gone
Ran down that dirt track
Screaming silently IM MORE THAN THIS
They heard you
So signed you up for this
dark
Dark
Fantasy
Now that your out in the cold
You thought you had no armor
Until they took your gold
illusions built on illusions built on illusions
I'm in love with my killer by hastsmak, literature
Literature
I'm in love with my killer
I'm going,
I said ' Get me there'
They said ' We thought you'd never ask'
They tortured me out of love
I slept with death
I learned that fear only wants to be loved
I'm in love with my killer
I never fell for his innocence in the summer
Just his brotherly charm,
& the gold in his soul behind those eyes.
He cuts me up, without touch or words;
Am I afraid? I no longer want to hurt,
I swam, I ran, but it wont work when he loves me in my dreams,
I'm not strong enough to fight the dream.
He says he doesn't remember me but I've got a portal into his subtlety,
Your coughing blood just like me, put my mouth on your mouth and we'll drink eternally
She wore black and danced in every desert dream
Colours pored from her arms as they became rainbow cobras
She changed to Gold and danced in every desert dream
Keep calling
Bring them back
Light the fire
Loamy faces
Toss the head
Our canoe
A private dance for the river and for you
Its overly blurry, my amnesia
This fever,
is fading?
Am I still dreaming?
Remember, when our eyes would change
When the world died overnight
We ran riot through the castles
They hunted us
And we laughed at rabid rabbits hunting the lions
His pale pale body
Changing from bronze to white
I had to carry you
Onto the table
A bloody river
A bloo
I am a human, not sure about the percentage though. I have the mannerisms of a prey animal. I have spent at least 2 years of my life living almost as a hermit. I'm into clashes and opposites and extremities, my head gets annoyed with the inbetweens, I feel like my mind falls apart with no clear boundary lines. I have my fingers in too many uncooked pies. Art and music are merged to me, my drawings and photography are usually part of my music and vise versa, I would love people to listen to my music whilst looking at my art work. I have my toes in many pies. The end
Tools of the Trade
Brain, pulse boom boom travels down to hands and then whatever
Screw you all
but thankyou for the lessons & reflections
But you undo kindness of a lifetime by doing one evil deed
but you dont get it, you just dont get it
we are too different
now I erase everything
so you wont find me
fed up of guarding the door everynight
conjuring violence up just incase I need it
My fairy is sick
I know who I am
And this is not it
So goodbye
Lick the black soot from the pavements
I will run through meadows
And come back for them
I need a break from this war
I dont know if this is me out forever
or until...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ej3SmDScjjY
I only write journals when I am under the influence of something.
I drank some rum early, the cheapest most digusting rum ever, the last time I drank it I threw it back up when I was trying to swollow it and it went on my pillow, I felt trashy and unhygenic.
I dont enjoy drinking alcohol. I enjoy some of the effects, the fact that I feel like im not directly in my body and floating around some place else warm and comfy, any pain I had floats away and I become a really nice person, talkative and the whole room enjoys me, im not sure whether thats because I really do become so nice and cheerful and funny, or whether im that drunk im making a
I havnt been on here for a long time and dont get much time on the internet so spend more time on FB than anything else, if you are on FB I would love to add you if you want me to do that is ;) either give me your name in the comments of PM me
I fogot abt what i needed help for, uhhh i think someone i know is trying to draw for money, but..... i mmmmmmmm a have to get to back to u on that, well u might wana forget
Rosie-chan17 , is here name, she running a anime contest thingy, she need help running it, i wud help her myself, but im low on time right now, so if u cud help that wud be good, if not i understand, mention my name, when you say something to her,